What I Was Feeling When I Saw Gatsby

Imagine seeing someone you once loved for the first time in five years.  How would you feel?  I can't even give a name to the feeling that came across me when I saw Jay Gatsby.  It was a mixture of every feeling possible.  Normally when you see someone you haven't seen in forever, you run to them and hug them or something like that.  I couldn't do that.  I didn't know who this man was anymore.  I was paralyzed.  With happiness?  With fear?  I couldn't tell you. When Gatsby first stepped into the room, I felt as though my heart had dropped into my stomach.  I couldn't laugh.  I couldn't cry.  I was so confused.  It seemed like the feelings from five years ago had returned.  Do I love him?  I was scared... I felt like he was judging me.  Every move I made he was watching.  It was kind of creepy.  He just kept staring and it made me feel uncomfortable.  Is there something wrong with me?  How much have I changed in five years?  On top of feeling all of this, I was nervous as anything.   I don't think I had ever been this nervous in my entire life.  I was freaking out.  I think Nick noticed that I was shaking.  Like I said before, words cannot describe how I was feeling.  It was the strangest thing I had ever experienced.