Why I Skipped Town After Gatsby Died

Knowing that I am responsible for the death of the love of my life is so painful.  I could not stand to be anywhere near Gatsby or anyone that knew him.  When I found out that Jay had been murdered, I didn't know what to do.  I had to leave town.  I didn't have a choice.  There was no way I would have been able to stay there.  Everything reminded me of him.  I already lost him once and I didn't know if I would ever be able to see him again.  Now he is gone forever.  Also, eventually someone would find out the truth about who killed Myrtle Wilson.  It was me.  I didn't mean to.  I would not be able to live with that if I stayed there.  Everything I see in that town reminds me of that night.  Like I said, everything reminds me of Gatsby and he is the reason I killed Myrtle.  I probably should have gone back for Jay's funeral, but I didn't.  I couldn't.  It would have hurt too much.  Besides, Tom wouldn't let me.  Speaking of Tom, he was another reason I left town.  He made me leave.  I think he just didn't want to take any chances of me leaving him to stay with Gatsby.  That sounds like something I would do.